The truth is...

The past two-ish months I have had to break the news that my boyfriend and I broke up.

In some instances before breaking the news I have had to explain that
"no I am not engaged."

Breaking up sucks!

I have felt much grief.
This last weekend something finally happened in my heart that I cannot explain.
It is lifted again, I don't turn off the country radio station anymore.
I don't cry when I hear certain songs on the radio.

In fact this morning I turned on the radio and "Oh you make me smile" began.
I swear you would have thought I just started a cd
I thought in my head "no this will not make me sad"

The truth is he still makes me smile.
Maybe not with the same meaning.
But I have fond memories of time spent with a good friend.
A friend I will always cherish.

I told someone today that we broke up and her response was "jerk"
I guess that is the girlfriend response.

But the truth is he was honest.
The truth is he did what was best for me.
Do I like it? I am getting used to it.
The world has not ended.

The truth is I will always speak highly of him.
The truth is he has a great character.
The truth is I am blessed to know him.
The truth is he is my friend!

I am the luckiest girl in the world!

I feel my last post may have been misinterpreted so I wanted to share the rest of my heart.

I am surrounded by so many amazing people that love and care for me, so numerous that they cannot be named. It is likely you are reading my blog and you should know I am speaking of you.
I have felt of their love, I have seen their love.

I was staring at a picture of my family the other day and thought how did I become so lucky to be surrounded by such beautiful people with shining faces. They aren't perfect but they are mine.

I have the gospel of Jesus Christ in my life that fills me with love, faith, and hope!

I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and his Holy Spirit to comfort and guide me.

I have had the blessing of loving another without condition.

I am the luckiest girl in the world!

That is the rest of my heart.

Don't Forget Me

It used to seem impossible that I could be replaced

Now I fear I will be forgotten

I find myself jealous of those who have your friendship

I miss what we had

You changed me for the better


A friend shared a song with me that I felt rang true with some of the thoughts in my heart.

Someone like you by Adele:

Old friend, why are you so shy?

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg

Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg!

Precious moments!

Today was a special day of precious moments.

My niece was blessed today.
Kyrah Lea Clements

It was a precious moment watching my dad and brothers and my sister in laws brothers and father get up to stand in the circle surrounding this sweet new little girl. My youngest brother, not yet old enough to stand in the circle performed his priesthood duty by holding the microphone. It was a precious moment hearing my brother, Kyrah's father, pronouce a blessing for her life. 9 men in the circle and my 13 year old brother holding the mic. What a way to start a life than to be surrounded by such good examples.

My other precious moment came shortly after when my 13 year old brother came and sat next to me. My heart has been grieving for the past little while and it seems will continue for a time and my sweet brother understands that I am sad. When he sat next to me he put his arm up over my shoulder and gave me a pat and left it there for the remainder of the meeting. He would have done this regardless of the sadness in my heart, but it lessened for a moment as he shared his love as a 13 year old with his 27 year old sister.