Moments

Life can be quite unexpected at times. Things are going well and then you are thrown a curve and expected to react in some sort of way to the unknown of what the future may bring. It is in those moments where I feel that I have come to know myself best. Where I have come to truly know my hearts desires. In some of those moments I have had the thoughts of what if this possibility of this trial came true in my life? How would my life be affected? What friends would I gain, what friends would I possibly lose? How would those close to me deal with the burden? Am I doing what I want to be doing in my life right now? Am I loving those that are around me enough? Am I saying goodbye to my fears? Am I living the kind of life that I am proud of? Am I serving the Lord to the best of my abilities? Are my prayers with real intent? Is my scripture study engaging? Am I doing all within my power to live a happy life? Am I supporting my friends? Tons and tons of questions enter the mind and you get down to your very deepest desires. Your prayers become even more earnest for those you love and you become a little less selfish in the process. Realizing in those moments what truly matters most. In the end my curve ball did not bring about the worst possibilities, but it did bring about a greater love for life and a greater love for those who I have to share my life with. It brought about a sense of peace that I am doing all I can do within my sphere to bring about my own happiness. Sure there are things that I am without that could add to my happiness but I cannot affect others choices, I can only make my own. And I am doing all that I can to act in hope for a brighter future and am grateful for the present light that I live in now!