When patience is required

"God's Promises are not always fulfilled as quickly or in the way we might hope. Patience means staying with something until the end, it means delaying immediate gratification for future blessings!" ~ President Dieter F Uchtdorf

This has been the lesson God has been teaching me over the past year and continues to teach me and remind me.

Ruth 3:18 Sit still, my daughter, until thou know how the matter will fall: for the man will not be in rest, until he have finished the thing this day.




Someday I will get my SMORE

Even when you're gone...

"Even when you're gone,

Somehow you come along just like

A flower pokin' through the sidewalk crack

And just like that

You steal away the rain, and just like that

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

Oh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you

'Cause every time that I get around you

I see the best of me inside your eyes

You make me smile

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe

Shine like gold, buzz like a bee

Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed

Sing like bird, dizzy in my head

Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

Oh, you make me smile!"

Fishing

I have been going fishing for a; I mean with a very handsome man. ;)

Yep pretty much lucky me!

He also cooks yummy food! Shrimp Boil with my fam

Today the handsome man is away, but I bought a fishing license and just happened to catch a fish on one of his lines while I was out kayaking. 19" :) I was pretty proud!
This is the note I left for my room mate on the freezer :S Hopefully she doesn't mind.

A Second of Jealousy

I have many friends who walked the Halls and Hills/Mountains (?) of the BYU campus in Provo Utah. They are proud to call it their Alma Mater. They for a few years of their lives spent time in a place filled with spiritual and intellectual learning. I can understand the appeal of attending such a place and will admit that there have been a few times when I myself would have appreciated the environment that is provided by a school like BYU. But the truth is I am grateful for the education that I have received while not attending BYU. (Don't judge my school for my bad grammar. My grammar can be purely blamed on me.)* I am grateful for the experience that I have had with the many diverse individuals I am surrounded by. And I think that BYU was never the school for me to attend, I created my own spiritual University. That being said I found myself a tad Jealous when on the News the other day I heard about the World's Largest Balloon Fight being held at BYU in Provo.

120,000 Balloons

WOW

All I can say is I am glad that I am not the person that had to tie off all those balloons. For my birthday I had somewhere around 500 and my youngest brother and sister helped me out in filling and tying. My poor fingers! I can't imagine 120,000.

But what an awesome fight it would have been to attend!

*I have many friends who are wonderful writers and very articulate with words. I unfortunately am not as articulate as my friends and am sure many times I can hear my friends cringing as they read over my post. Possible run on sentences... random dots that don't mean anything... my use of ish... And my good Texas accent leavin off the g's in ing at the end of a word. I do try my best to at least read over what I wrote once.

Tingles, Sighs, and Smiles

I feel a tingling inside

bringing a sigh to my lips

erupting in happiness on my face.

I kind of like this feeling!

Happy Happy Happy B-Day

Best Birthday Weekend Ever!

Early Morning phone call (12am) from my brother wanting to be the first to wish me Happy Birthday!
Chinese food with a handsome man for lunch!
Spending time with my closest friends, living in the Austin/San Marcos area!
Playing Quelf, which is a really random fun game.
Watching grown men and my little brother play Ninja. (If you don't know what it is you are missing out)
Water Balloon Fight with about 500 balloons.
Awesome wipe out, with nice battle scar for a souvenir. Sad part is I had just reloaded on water balloons.
Crockpot chicken tacos.
Snickers Chimichangas!!! Best non-traditional birthday cake idea ever!
A back massage/rub!!
Gifts of a tent (fits up to 8), camping chair, crunch & munch (my ultimate guilty pleasure as far as food goes, yes I will eat the whole box by myself), Fiery Hot Cheetos, ticket to anything (w/in driving distance ;) I am thinking a cruise out of Galveston ha ha!
People saying all sorts of nice things about me :)
Camping in my parents back yard (even if it was amazingly humid)
My brother letting me use his cot
Breakfast tacos (sausage, egg, cheese, salsa mmmhhhh)
Bowling a 183!!! (Never mind that it was on the Wii)
Lazily tubing down the San Marcos River
A nap
Digiorno's Ultimate 4 meat pizza, Crunch and Munch, & 2 movies for some me time. (One movie slightly scary and sad, the other inspiring. Smart movie watching skills, watch slightly scary movie first in the day time, watch inspiring movie second to get rid of all anxiety left over from scary/sad movie.)

Probably could have done w/o the sad slightly scary movie (mostly cause I don't like scary movies) I will refrain from naming the movie on the basis that I will most likely be made fun of for considering it a scary movie.

Other than that my birthday weekend was a grand success. I got to celebrate my inner child!

Conversations with God

Child: Father, my heart hurts! There is pain in my chest that brings these tears to my eyes, that allows these sobs to come out of my mouth. I don't know what to do. I am fighting with all that I have and I don't know if I have the strength. My heart is afflicted, my mind is in chaos. I want to be mad, I want to scream! Why do I have this pain? Will you take it away?

God: My child, I understand your heart hurts, I see your tears and hear your sobs, you are not alone. Have patience, bear with all manner of afflictions. Do not revile. Have patience, and bear with those afflictions, with a firm hope that you shall one day rest from all your afflictions. *

Child: I know that you love me Father, I see that you have heard my cries. I don't understand, but I will trust your voice, I will trust your hand.

God: Remember in your life when you have trusted your heart to me and you have been filled with joy?

Child: I do

God: Remember how I have prepared you for things to come, and that in my strength you have succeeded?

Child: I see

God: Remember how I have comforted you, that I have encircled you about in my embrace? Remember that I have put my words in your mouth and have covered you in the shadow of my hand? ** I give unto you these things that ye may be prepared for the things to come, for great things await you.*** All things must come to pass in their time. Be not weary in well-doing. I require the heart and a willing mind.**** I will show unto you what I will concerning you, or what is my will concerning you.***** By my spirit I will enlighten you, by my power you will know my will, even that which eye hath not seen, nor ear heard.****** In my service you shall have strength, be patient in afflictions for you will have many, but endure them for I am with you.*******Know that through these experiences you are becoming who I know you to be. Blessed are you for you will be with me. Look unto me in every thought; doubt not, fear not. Be faithful and know, my child, that I am God.

Child: Father, I understand! In your strength I will fight. I will be faithful and trust in thy will, knowing that you will lead me. I know that thou art God! In my weakness I will seek for your strength and in my heartache I will seek for your love. I will seek for your Son, Jesus Christ who has taken upon himself my pain, my weakness, my infirmities that he may aid me in my afflictions.********

*Book of Mormon Alma 34: 40-41
** Book of Mormon 2 Nephi 8:12-16
*** Doctrine and Covenants 45:61-62
**** Doctrine and Covenants 64:32-34
***** Doctrine and Covenants 66:4
****** Doctrine and Covenants 76:10
******* Doctrine and Covenants 24:7-8
******** Book of Mormon Alma 7:11-12